Elephants Outside

it wasn’t a day that i should have been dwelling on us but i was in between the ugly mess of all...

Mon, 13 May 2013 12:15:52 -0400

it wasn’t a day that
i should have been dwelling
on us but i was

in between the ugly mess
of all things rational
floors that needed to be
vacuumed and phone calls
you know,
those unkind
obligations

i was still stuck
somehow
on you

in the face of adversity

Thu, 09 May 2013 00:25:22 -0400

there is a time
to throw the towel in
but there is also a time
to tie it around your neck
as a terry cloth cape,
a time to run around the
kitchen island
singing
like a six year old who
gets to sleep in
on weekends
and believes in dreams
we had
so long ago.

medicine these days

Tue, 07 May 2013 14:32:31 -0400

You can cut out a kidney
as well as
a significant portion
of liver and intestine.
Remove one, maybe two eyes and ears-

they’re not entirely necessary-
legs, arms;
candidates for amputation.

And experts stand up, applauding,
calling it miraculous
how the human body
can so tenaciously subsist with
help from our
21st century pills and machines.

But they’ve still
not yet devised something
strong enough,
darling,
to help me move through
these days
without you.

swiss legend: legato cirque

Mon, 29 Apr 2013 11:46:53 -0400

happiness
doesn’t go on sale.
there’s no gift wrap
option and
it never comes with
free shipping.
it took a couple hours
of forced rationality
to figure that out.
as a result
i saved about $142
plus tax
but jesus christ
there’s still a hole,
there’s still a hole in my chest.

there was a garter snakecrossing the road as i was on my way back.i swerved slightly to make sure...

Sat, 13 Apr 2013 17:58:00 -0400

there was a garter snake
crossing the road as i was
on my way back.
i swerved slightly to make sure its
small body was in between
the wheels,
then looked in the side mirror
to see if i saved it.
a glittering black line on the pavement,
it was still slithering across
and
i watched as the car behind me
split it in half.

the thoughts

Sat, 13 Apr 2013 12:46:24 -0400

i had to leave
so i drove to our house
and it took only an hour
to realize that 40 miles wasn’t
far enough away to escape
anything
and also that i’d wasted gas
and would waste gas
driving back the next day
but i just couldn’t bear another
second
sitting in that small dark space
where other people made me
wish i was alone

pick another timeto write your tragedythe wind has kicked upand april is cartwheeling through my...

Thu, 11 Apr 2013 22:06:00 -0400

pick another time
to write your tragedy
the wind has kicked up
and april is cartwheeling
through my hair

now
right now is the very best kind
of existence
the kind of beautifully
wholesome struggle that
teaches a person what it is
to breathe deeply
and know their own name

the sunset really has something going for it right now, it’s bringing down the house

Wed, 10 Apr 2013 20:29:49 -0400

the sunset really

has something going for it
right now, it’s

bringing down the house

8th of April (18.30)

Mon, 08 Apr 2013 18:41:59 -0400

It takes a special
kind of person
to damage the
day you made,

a day that was
creative with the
primary colours,
carefully handled so when
it set and dried,
it could be something
you would want
to hang above your bed.

Yes, it takes a certain type
of person to wrench that
from your hands.

8th of April (7.00)

Mon, 08 Apr 2013 16:29:22 -0400

The sunrise this morning
has charmed me
irrefutably,
it feels as if
a dream has
flown to nest
within an arm’s length
of my capture.

full of books and shoesalone, the room still echoes what creates a home

Thu, 04 Apr 2013 21:28:21 -0400

full of books and shoes
alone, the room still echoes
what creates a home

trying to find sleep on a bed already madesoon the sun will rise

Sun, 31 Mar 2013 04:15:17 -0400

trying to find sleep
on a bed already made
soon the sun will rise

training the healers

Sat, 30 Mar 2013 23:35:22 -0400

i killed something today
and they watched me, they watched while
i fixed him to the table
and he squirmed and twisted,
all legs and arms but still
pinned by his wrists.
they ignored it, they ignored his motions.
angry and shaking and
i cut his chest open,
clipped the last bit off his sternum with
dull scissors;
the best of what they gave me but
he wouldn’t stop
bleeding.
i put a hook through his heart
and he wouldn’t stop screaming.

chapter 22

Tue, 26 Mar 2013 22:32:45 -0400

god,
you’re beautiful and
by now someone should have
ground that knowledge into you
with their hipbones;
they should have given you a warmth
you could carry in your chest

2am

Tue, 26 Feb 2013 02:00:18 -0500

You’re looking for answers
In a world where you are probably
Going to fall in love with a sack of flesh
That is 70% water.

i went swimming in the internet and i drowned

Wed, 06 Feb 2013 00:30:58 -0500

i went swimming in the

internet and i drowned

awake

Thu, 24 Jan 2013 21:58:00 -0500

You sat too close to be
A dream straddling
The bench open legged and
With an open heart
I could feel my chest collapse
As you pressed your mouth
Against mine
Warm passionate saliva dissolving
A year of walls:
Building a gate in our picket fence
And I watched as
You set the sun with your
Hands and they burned
Straight through me
was that
what you wanted
After all of our unravelings
After distance and injustice
To be set alive and filled to the
Brim with motion
Embedded with a tangible velocity

we two know the truth

Wed, 23 Jan 2013 23:35:00 -0500

We sleep in different beds and
are loved by different people and
we gracefully allow them to distract us

reservations

Wed, 23 Jan 2013 21:48:00 -0500

never make plans

be they dissection

or construction

employ hesitations and

enlist the assistance of devices stronger

than yourself

resist

your caring tendencies

you do not need the charities of

lace and velvet napkins to wrap your

wounds

use only your bedsheets, use only your arms.

the glamour of tracing

a constellation of

freckles

down arched vertebrae is

terrifyingly

temporary

Insignificant golden Specks visible in The strongest sunrays Bitter chill deceptive Clothed in a...

Tue, 22 Jan 2013 09:07:51 -0500

Insignificant golden
Specks visible in
The strongest sunrays
Bitter chill deceptive
Clothed in a fleece of
Grandmothers
Bodies in communion
Soon to find their
Caskets